At the moment, I am the most confused person on earth. I don’t know where my thoughts are taking me and I have been lingering in an oblivion for the past five years. More than anything else, I want to be with my parents because when I am with them, I am emotionally balanced. Right now, the only thing I’m looking for is a place where I can sit in seclusion and think because I really need to think. Needless to say, theres no place other than home which comes to my mind. I can feel that my mind has degenerated a lot since coming to a place where I never wanted to be. I have made some wrong choices in life. The problem lies in the fact that I don’t even have the time to repent. I am not a very expressive person and the only fact which is encouraging me to write are the ideas that are coming to my head at the moment. I hope I look at this post one day and laugh at what I am writing. I enjoy writing and blogging but I had been silent for a very long time and the only reason was a writer’s block that I was experiencing for quite some time now. I feel glad that I have finally been able to break the wall down and start writing again. I wanna leave myself to God and let him take care of me and just hope that I do not make wrong decisions again. I really can’t screw up again….I can’t afford to.
p.s: I am thinking of getting something which can inspire and motivate me. I have my inspiration with me but not my motivation. My motivation is lost in the confusion which has spawned from the apprehension of making mistakes again. I desperately needed to write and I feel much better now that I did.